selfishness.

a subject i've been mulling over quite a few days now...
i've come to the conclusion that i'm the most selfish person i know... now now now, i would assume you, the reader can come to the exact same conclusion.
Only i can see inside of my heart, all the selfish motives that are hidden behind layers and layers and layers of generosity.
Praise God, i see subtle levels of it fleeing but its such a deep rooted nature within me.
The old flaring up trying to overcome the new nature.
How thankful i am for the encouragement from Revelation 12:11, "they overcome by the blood of the Lamb & the word of their testimony"... there's a deeper cry if you finish the verse "and they love not their lives even unto death"
It's interesting how that second and MOST IMPORTANT part of the verse has so often been taught around...
I'm spending today just thinking about the humility found in not loving my life.
and living attempting to live in a way that does not exude selfishness, even internally, difficult as that may be... i think it'll be worth it...
it's more blessed to give than to receive...