continuing reflections...

16 These are the things that you shall do: Speak the truth to one another; render in your gates judgments that are true and make for peace; 17 do not devise evil in your hearts against one another, and love no false oath, for all these things I hate, declares the Lord." - Zechariah 8:16-17
these verses came to me this morning, as such an encouraging thing.  and a way for me really to have a proper mindset.  really such a promise and direct word, how often are we crying out ... "God, what are you doing?!" when really the answer is right in front of us in the Word, this was the place i was this morning.  and PTL, he answered me!  He heard my cry, and really spoke, even when i doubt, it must come to where i rely so heavily on Him that i will only be found in Him.
"every time i find healing, you're making a new mess" these lyrics echo in my soul. . .
and the saddest moment of the day was when i was humble, only to find that what i felt was an opportunity for reconciliation really only lead to a hardness of heart.  how is it that hearts get so hard and so dull that pain just bounces off like a marble on a stone table top... it's impenetrable and there is nothing that can really be done to soften it.  i feel that is the soil that my words landed on today.  there were glimpses, yes, real glimpses of friendship on  a very basic level... i can't get over reading the text that said "it's time to move on"  maybe that was about me, maybe it was not, but regardless, it is what i read.  The wonder of it is i really did, speak truth, and render true judgment, and strove for peace.  Thankful that it was laid before me prior to starting a conversation.  I did what i needed, perhaps this one doesn't hold much water at the moment, i suppose i didn't really expect it to.  but hoped that it would.  remain in Him, and continually abide.  then all these things don't matter and we'll sow and reap peace because it will be the natural fruit of our lives...