thought.

i was reading through some old writings, and i stumbled across this line in my computer, "isn't it true though that emptiness, is the truest place of fullness"
i reflect on this ... it was written in a time of loneliness, and even though i wouldn't  necessarily put that  label on where I'm at in the moment...  although it is an easy label for me to accept... but it is boggling to read my own words and take them to heart   ... to realize the importance of reliance o n Christ.  this is a continual realization of that need for fullness.  and there is only one place it can be coming from... guess what, i'm ready to take a BIG step of faith tonight.  :D

amazing grace.

this morning i was encouraged to write an add onto the song, amazing grace, so here goes
...

when Jesus opens up my eyes
i see as Father sees.
No more the sin tangled in lies
his blood has set me free.

and i can come before the throne
of grace and i receive
a crown i must lay down
and cry, i give it back to thee

looking back upon my life
i see your hand in mine
you grace again i don't deserve
this is my heart's reply

there are just some things...

there are just some things you need to let go of and then you may or may not get them back.
it's hard not to be disappointed when you choose to give out of your lack.
when its everything you've got, what more is there to give...
open your arms and cry it out ... you've gotta live, truly live.

its hard not to feel a failure when a challenge comes your way and you feel like you never really got a chance to take it face on.

be bold!

this morning, an old song came to mind, it's one of those that really makes me think of summer camp... (and one that i haven't heard for probably 10 years)
nonetheless, the message speaks much of some discussion i was having yesterday evening... isn't it interesting how

i hope it challenges you in the same way it challenged me.

BE BOLD, BE STRONG
 
Be bold, be strong for the Lord your God is with you,
Be bold, be strong for the Lord your God is with you,
I am not afraid (No, No, No!)
I am not dismayed,
For I'm walking in faith and victory
Come on and walk in faith and victory
For the Lord your God is with you.


be bold today friends

song.

Emma by Jason Upton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjDTlRz95NU
speaks to me.

memorizing scripture.

today, i realized a bit of the power of memorizing scripture ... i have started spending time focusing on this discipline... well, i got myself into a place where i very well could have become angry, as i would at most times, but then suddenly, a scripture popped into my mind that i'm memorizing... "He bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness.  by his wounds you are healed."  1 peter 2:24 (this is from my memory, i'm sure its not perfect... you can check it out for real.) but regardless, the power of this verse, he took my sin upon himself that i might live to righteousness, and every time i deny that, i'm essentially slapping him in the face.  and the truth of the matter is that hurts.

alas.

alas, here i am, another day is nearly complete... sometimes i ask myself if i did make the best decisions this day.  today, i would for the most part say yes.  on the outside.  i interacted well, heard new stories and celebrated  yet, on the inside i still feel burdened, and just heavy...i know that a new season in my  life is upon me, and i also konw i don't want to let go of the old... just talking about babies and births today, it was a sly comment i made about being nearly 1 month late, a friend said, you sure were comfortable there, now weren't you!?  my response was simply that i can't imagine it any other way... why give up the nice and comfortable for the pile of traffic at least a half mile long...