do i try too hard?

his power is made perfect in my weakness.
i suppose this day, this easter day, i stop and i look around.
i think about the places i've been since last easter, i think about the lives that have touched me... the ones i've touched too.
i wonder what it looks like to invest in the cross yes, but more so to really live in the resurrection Life of Christ.
how is it at one moment i can be exceedingly proud and the next so broken. 
this only shows me that it's me trying to live from my own strength.


Psalm 119:32
-- I will run in the ways of your commandments when you enlarge my heart.

renewed.

tonight, was a good night, a night of expressing where i am and being gut honest with a good friend.  it was a night of celebration and joys and memories.
went to a bar to celebrate a friend's 21st.  and ran into a guy that "everybody knows" and he was welcoming and generally his friendly self.
afterward 3 of us sat down at a table.
i asked the question, "what does it look like to shine as a light in a dark place" we had a little discussion and a way to apply it quickly. 
a woman slightly drunk came to the table to be generally chatty. she was the freindly bar type, and asked a little about us and wished us a happy easter, someone piped in and asked if she knew the reason for easter... she got on her soap box and talked about how she was catholic, but still asked for the reason, she said she talked to God everyday.  but then goes and takes the Lord's name in vain and "gasps"
needless to say, i reak of cigarette, but it's well worth it for being able to have a friends speak such life into a desperate woman. 

pondering

thinking about the abilene paradox.
this modern parable can change your life and the way you are honest in relationships
i want to live this way.

in real life

I saw 1 Kings 19:11-12 in real life this morning.
a swift wind blowing the trees at 6:00
peeling thunder maybe at 6:45.
rain in a downpour maybe at 7:30

He wasn't i any of these places, except in His raw power.
He was in a stirring of remembrance.
"it is not for your sake i wil act, declares the Lord God; let that be known to you." -eze 36":32

hosanna

palm sunday, a day of emotion.
hosanna they shouted with a joyous proclamation.

from wikipeida...
"Hoshana" (הושענא) is a Hebrew word meaning please save or save now

Overall, it seems that, "Hosanna," is a cry for salvation, while at the same time is a declaration of praise. Therefore, it may be derived that this plea for help is out of an agreeably positive connotation.

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today, with abandon we cried hosanna in worship.  i did not realize it was the depth of the cry of my heart.  how cool.
a lot is going on, i can't place fingers exactly on what is going on... but this i do konw, God will bring me to where i need to be, and He will be mighty to save.

i will

this is a powerful statement, i want to live in n i will attitude... ya, that'd be great!
its riddled throughout scripture... i will what we will do and what God will...

and for a moment.

the whole world felt right.
i'm quick to admit that i'm pretty quick to live on experience, emotion, but tonight it did... it was just right... seeing friends from around the world that have been in contact for months but now in real life to touch and love.  the kingdom is bigger than america.  there's such joy in unity.
i can't express what i feel right now, but lets go with a thankful heart.  this prepares the way for teh Lord, so come Lord, change and renew...
CREATE IN ME a clean heart, a clean heart that replaces the broken and dirty heart.  i can't "clean my heart" God has to CREATE a new heart.  and He's doing it. 
how cool.